If you can control a mans thinking, you don’t have to worry about his actions. If you can determine what a man thinks you do not have worry about what he will do. If you can make a man believe that he is inferior, you don’t have to compel him to seek an inferior status, he will do so without being told and if you can make a man believe that he is justly an outcast, you don’t have to order him to the back door, he will go to the back door on his own and if there is no back door, the very nature of the man will demand that you build one. – Carter G Woodson
This is a statement I have to continue to come back to when it comes to self worth. I mean damn it all if every stimuli isn’t tell me that I am less that worthy.
I never thought I’d have to focus on a personal narrative for myself to give this life my all but I do; I think we all do. Even the beautiful women who get “you’re beautiful” or “I love your personality,” knowing damn well these men don’t know her well enough.
It’s not real
It seems characters are pushed to the forefront to relate to us, but I think it’s possible that it keeps a lot of us down. Knowing these highly flawed personalities are doing beyond well in life. We need to take a step back and realize not many made it to the top alone, even though self-preservation is all the rave in the United States. Everyone wants to be self-made, so we isolate ourselves.
It took a while for me to see that I have talent. I was easily looked over even when I started taking photos. I often felt like a tool to take photographs, a guy pushing a button. That affected my personality. I talked less and when I took the photo I drifted as far back as I could.
As promised here is more from the shoot I recently shot. Don’t you love when conditions come out well. This is December in the Chicago area. Crazy, I know. This is me giving a nice good-bye to my old camera. Few months ago I almost quit photography and it seems clients came out of no where preventing me from putting one of my passions down.
Still fighting it
I still struggle with this. Now that people like my work personally over others now I feel like if I didn’t have this camera who would I be? It’s a narrative that I have to fight. I want to tell myself that I have value. It’s a valuable move to tell the world they are wrong and walk away knowing I am telling the truth.